To those of you who think I’m dying of breast cancer right here, right now, hear this: I’M NOT.
To those of you who worry that I will die of breast cancer some day, hear this: STOP IT.
To those of you who aren’t sure how you feel about any of this but are sure of one thing, and that is that I ain’t no quitter and you love me, I say this:
HOLD THAT THOUGHT.
And to you who don’t know WTF I’m talking about, I say this:
trauma in life, no matter what form it comes in, changes everybody. And if you’re one of the people being changed by someone else’s trauma, I advise you to connect with the fear you’ve got inside you and deal with that first before you head anywhere else.
Fear is the enemy. Fear is the life-sucking sound from which to block our ears. Premature death, devastating divorce, illness, sadness, pain–whatever it is, it’s made stronger and more virulent by fear–our fear. Why did this happen? Who’s to blame? Will it happen again? Will it happen to me? And before I know it, I’m down the fear slide of life, the one that ends in the playground of darkness. Screw that.
Please please please, don’t fear. Be strong. Be hopeful. And if at all possible, be happy.
All the rest will happen as it happens–and none of us knows what that is. And we don’t have to know. We can’t beat it out of the universe before the universe is ready to give it up–that’s crazy, and futile. What’s within our power is our attitude. Fear can’t touch attitude. In fact I think fear is afraid of attitudes–the positive ones, the ones it can’t smother in doubt and sadness.
I live for the happiness that I create when I push away fear and allow relief and joy to come through. Sure I get scared, sure I feel nuts, sure I panic–but then I let it go. Tomorrow, as they say, is another day, and I’ll be damned if I lose tomorrow, or today for that matter, to panic.
I’m here to tell you that the absence of terror has created an abundance of joy for me each day as I battle my way through metastatic breast cancer. At this point in my life that’s a pretty damn good trade off, and I highly suggest it to anyone out there in need of an emotional lift. Remember, if anyone in this world is living proof that fear is the enemy, it’s me…
emphasis, of course, on the word living.
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